Reflection #3: Only by Grace

Another year has gone by. Looking back, what will you say your greatest moments were? What is the highlight of your 2017? What have you learned about 2017? 

Let me get out the negatives first. I had frustrating times in the last half of 2017. It suffices to say that my health has been once again not good. My disease is not fatal and I have found ways to deal with it, but I think it was the first big relapse since 2012 (the year I got the diagnosis).

Anyway, I’m on meds and I feel okay now. It’s just, there have been times where the sounds in my head got the best of me. One time I got an allergic reaction for a week or so and my doctor couldn’t see it. There were rashes all over my body and he didn’t ever think that that was an allergic reaction. Now every time I see red spots on my skin I couldn’t help to overthink – like I always do.

There were other situations that I don’t think are necessary to tell, but it almost interfered with my trip to Australia. And honestly, that trip could’ve been a disaster. I got sick on the plane and couldn’t enjoy my first couple of days there.

Being sick sucks big time. 

But as I’m sitting here typing this post, I can’t help to think how amazing it is that I’ve gone through it all in one piece! I mean, I had very tough days that made me really wonder about what future I’ll be having.

As I see the whole picture, it doesn’t really matter. 

I don’t have to think about my future. My future struggles will come, but what’s even more important is the fact that I’m here. Have you ever stopped and thought, “How did I get here?” The answer is in HIM, always. I truly think that it’s all only because of Him. The amazing thing is that His Grace is enough for me. It’s enough to hold me and get me up whenever I’m down, and I’m telling you I’ve been down numerous times.

And if His Grace has been enough after all this time, it’ll be enough for the days ahead.

And honestly, when I ignore those health problems that I had, 2017 was kind of grand! Let’s list down my highlights:

  1. I got to see Coldplay live!
  2. I became an aunt!
  3. Solo 1Ds have been astounding; Harry Styles blessed this world with his magnificent solo album (he’s my fav so allow me)!
  4. I visited Melbourne for the first time and fed kangaroos for the first time!
  5. Manchester United won trophies! (they still need to get it together though)
  6. I still have a job!
  7. Federer and Nadal have become the greatest athletes once again in their thirties and made me a fan of tennis!
  8. I watched amazing TV series!
  9. Just. Harry Styles.

And all is possible thanks to Lord Almighty!

So all in all, I am grateful for the things that happened and did not. I am grateful for being here. If anything, the bad things taught me to be stronger – however cliche that sounds. God helped me survive those, and He will help me again and again.

I hope you all have had a great year. Thank you for reading and see you in 2018!

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  • Reply Fransisca Angela January 2, 2018 at 12:54 pm

    I fell sick a couple of times this year as well and it was depressing!
    Being grateful is the only way we can get through 2017 with a smile despite all the obstacles.
    Thanks for sharing your lessons and review, Lia. Happy new year!

    • Reply Lia Levina January 3, 2018 at 1:40 pm

      I stumbled upon a quote today from TED Talk, something along the lines of “Gratefulness doesn’t come out of happiness, happiness comes out of gratefulness.”

      Thank you for reading Sisca, and happy new year too!

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